Testing, testing...is this thing on?

I've been everywhere and nowhere.
I've been here and there.
I've been up and down and all around.
I've been with you and away from you.
I've been with other people too.
I've been building a mound...
A mound of anticipation and dread.

For about two and a half years, I have looked for reasons to take pictures so that I could add them to my blog. I looked for reasons to update my blog, regardless of who did or did not read it. I wanted to share my creativity. I wanted to share my love of photography and writing. I wanted to share things with my friends and whoever else happened to be interested in my writing or my photography.

Now, when I try to sit down to update my blog, I am overwhelmed with the idea of adding text and pictures. I stop before I even begin. I open my picture files, look at them, look at my blog, and then close everything down and go to bed, or check email, or doodle around on the Internet at nothing in particular, and then go to bed. I'm not sure where my desire and dedication to keep my blog up-to-date has gone.

Maybe I think it's selfish or pointless or a waste of time or maybe I have been living my life instead of writing about it. I'm not sure it's any of those actually. For a while I have been putting my creative energies into drawing my feelings and thoughts. Taking pictures of my drawings to post them on here seems a little odd. I have done it before, but it seems different now. Part of me feels like blogs are overdone; everyone has one. Why aren't we all out there in the real world interacting with each other instead of writing blogs and messaging each other on facebook or twitter (neither of which I do)? Sometimes, well maybe more than sometimes, I like to boycott technology, especially when I see it taking over the lives of my students. There has to be a healthy boundary with technology, as with anything else in life.

So maybe I won't update as often, but maybe my posts will be more meaningful or more heartfelt. Or maybe it'll all be a load of bull shit. Either way, I'm updating it now....for the first time since my solitary post in March. I have some really great pictures that I took back at the beach in March that I never uploaded, so I think I'll share those with you. I am working on editing some wedding pictures for a co-worker's daughter's wedding. I am hoping to have those done before the end of the school year and will post a few when I finally finish the editing. Until then...

I'll leave you with a few beach pictures that will hopefully make you smile and long for the exquisite, sultry summer days as much as I do.

 

 

P.S. : I will turn the ripe old age of 30 in about 1 week and 2 days. Whew. Time sure does fly.